Global Community Communications Alliance Member Profile
Blue Evening Star
Spiritualution to
all fellow planetary seekers for God’s truth! I look forward to making friends
with each and every one of God’s children in the unfolding of His eternal
plan.
Why
did I come here? Because I heard that someone in Sedona was bringing through continuing
revelation from the same source as
The URANTIA Book
. I was told this by
two trusted friends who had originally taught me
The URANTIA Book
in the
70s. I had never been exposed to channeling or mediums or other new age practices,
but
The URANTIA Book
was my foundation of revelation which I had based
my life on and which inspired me to have my "spiritual rebirth" at age
nineteen, when I dedicated my life to following the "still, small voice within".
It
was the same comforting voice of the Spirit of Truth that rang in my heart like
a holy bell when I met Gabriel, Niánn and their three children in 1991.
My inner guidance told me clearly that I was to move quickly to Arizona to join
their ministry and dedicate my life to their mission, for I have been a seeker
of truth and of the vision needed to carry Urantia (Earth) out of darkness and
suffering and into Light and Life.
My
search started when I was a teenager. I was intent on discovering the purpose
of life and asked many people, but no one knew or would admit to me that they
knew. I ceased asking and began to watch people carefully, for I found they told
me by their actions and decisions what they believed. I was shocked to discover
that most people thought the purpose of life was to seek security and pleasure
for themselves. I knew this could not be my purpose.
Once
I began to read
The URANTIA Book
at age seventeen, I drank it in like a
sponge. It was my only reading material for several years, and I soon became actively
aware of the presence of my spiritual father and mother, Christ Michael (Jesus
Christ) and the Universe Mother Spirit.
I
believe that there have been certain events in my life that were a training and
preparation for my enrollment in the Global Community Communications Schools.
One of these preparations in my thinking was something I found myself saying when
a friend and student of mine pointed out to me that she thought I was actively
involved in the perfect work for me and that I would no doubt always be traveling
around doing pipe ceremonies, teaching Reiki, bringing music to gatherings and
weaving "rainbow baskets" with circles of people. I found myself replying
(God only knows why) that I did not agree. I told her that "one day I will
be a minister for Jesus in the southwest." I never forgot these words and
it was not very long after that they helped me recognize that in meeting Gabriel
and Niánn in Sedona, Arizona I was on the threshold of my destiny.
The other reason
I originally came here was because, through the grace of God, I have acquired
a deep and living faith that life on this planet has a future, contrary to all
evidence. To my mind, any thinking, caring person must come to the conclusion
that between spiritual, environmental, social and political problems, this planet
is on a fast track to dying.
At
the age of twenty-one, I had myself completely depressed and had about convinced
myself that I’d better not bring any children into this dying world. This
was a very painful time for me, and I know many others experience such despair
when they frankly face the state of the planet without the benefit of Fifth Epochal
Revelation (
The URANTIA Book
) and Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation to
bring clarity to the mind and the uplifting presence of God to bring hope to the
heart in the face of such overwhelming darkness. But God’s loving hand touched
me, and since that day I have known in my heart of hearts that through a miracle
of divine intervention, life will prevail on this beleaguered world. Ever since
then, I have been awaiting my chance to join forces with the human agents of those
celestial forces of Christ Michael which I knew would be implementing the necessary
changes; which I now know to be the establishment of divine administration on
Urantia.
I
spent the years waiting for the advent of divine administration in a variety of
pursuits. I married a Hungarian freedom fighter and gave birth to and raised our
son, Horizon. I lived in tipis and yurts for eighteen years all over California
and created the business Living Shelter Crafts and wrote the book
Building
Tipis and Yurts, Authentic Designs for Circular Shelters
, which was published
by Lark Books in Asheville, North Carolina in 1995 and has recently gone into
its second printing. I participated in the creation of an intentional community
in Northern California called Inspiration Sanctuary which involved the purchase
of 120 acres of land by a group of twelve people and their children. The community
fell apart after nine months. I did various work in the arena of activism, particularly
in the anti-nuclear movement and Native American rights movement.
Basically,
I could not bear to contribute to the dying part of the world and kept myself
as far away from the mainstream of the dominant culture as possible. I often felt
sad and alone, as well as unfulfilled because without the vital relationships
of being with my true family, I was severely limited in what I could
real
ize
or accomplish in all areas.
Now that I have been with my true cosmic family since 1992, I am
real
izing
and accomplishing the will of God at a steady rate of growth. I am happier and
healthier than I have ever been in my life.
I
have discovered, with the benefit of Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation in the
blessed Planetary Sacred Home, set up by the Mandate of the Bright and Morning
Star, that I have a tremendous amount of spiritual work to do in order to follow
the Universal Father’s mandate to become perfect. All too often my wounded
pride balks at being shown — no matter how lovingly — the details of
my imperfections and areas in need of healing and change. In the depths of my
wounded pride, it is my love for the children that causes me to come back into
my right mind.
I’d
like to say that I have chosen to stay, in spite of those challenging times of
being squeezed in a spiritual vise because I always do God’s will, but I
can only honestly say that while I always strive to hear from God and do His will,
I don’t always succeed.
I
stay here because I believe in the future of the children and in their God-given
right to grow up in a place where fathers and mothers are balanced. I live for
the day when every child on the planet is surrounded by cosmic family members
who guide them and love them with the wisdom and dedication that comes with
living
the Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation.
I
thank God every day for the privilege and great blessing of being one of the teachers
in the Global Community Communications Schools for Children and Teens. As
God, our unseen celestial friends, and eldership lead us into becoming the Divine
New Order culture of the fourth dimension on Urantia, I am most excited to witness
this unfolding in relationship to how we are raising our children at Aquarian
Concepts Community. What do I mean by this? Come and find out!
I
am also gratefully involved in composing and performing music in the Planetary
Folk Group. Being part of Global Change Music as a member of both the Planetary
Folk Group and the Gabriel of Urantia’s Bright and Morning Star Choir is tremendously
uplifting and rewarding. It is a great joy to perform in both these musical groups
songs composed by the greatest musician I have ever known, TaliasVan of Tora/Gabriel
of Sedona (see
The URANTIA Book
, Paper 67).
One
of the areas of intense struggle for me is my striving and all too often failing
to properly respond to Deo (Godly) authority. I find with honest self-analysis
that I am steeped and over-brimming with tendencies to envy, compete, resent or
simply not recognize those whose spiritual status makes them my elders. I am eternally
grateful to Gabriel of Urantia, Niánn Emerson Chase, and the eldership of
Global Community Communications Alliance for patiently and lovingly bringing me along with
their example, their teaching and their counsel. It is truly an honor to live
in fellowship with every single member of Global Community Communications Alliance, all of whom are striving
to "find God and become more like Him/Her".
I
said that through the grace of God I have been comforted by my faith in the inevitability
of a righteous and thriving future for my grandchildren and all my loved ones.
I can say now for the first time in my life, I not only have faith in the future,
I
know
that around the nucleus of the Mandate of the Bright and
Morning Star, ever- expanding circles of God’s
law
and God’s
love
will grow until the entire planet and beyond will be completely healed.
Relationships between ascending sons (males) and daughters (females) will be restored;
families will be re-united and become healthy; relationships between humanity
and the garden of Urantia will be planted and nurtured; true leaders will be recognized
and honored; each soul will be taught and encouraged from birth to become everything
that God intended for them to be. We will experience again a time like that spoken
of in TaliasVan’s beautiful song, "Intra/InterPlanetary Child"
(copyright 1999 Global Community Communications Alliance)
Blue Evening Star,
Minister
First Assistant
to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase and the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star
Nearly four years have passed since writing my original profile. Everything written there is truer than ever. My new comments and current thoughts have to do with experiences I have had in personal healing, and in my relationships with my biologic family.
My faith in God and my deep love and appreciation for the cosmic family was significantly broadened by the experience of finding an ovarian cyst in my body that grew to 18 lbs. in a matter of weeks. The surgical removal of this dio mass was but an opportunity for me to cooperate with the living spiritual forces of God to release many layers of negative emotions in my soul. I faced the mortality of my physical body and renewed my dedication to live and serve on Urantia [Earth] as long as I am needed here. I was lifted daily by the loving prayers of friends and family. Those who read the revelation to me during that time were feeding me life force in droplets of words and concepts that nourished and sustained me through the physical ordeal. I have become ever more conscious of the preciousness of my loved ones and the joy of sharing our lives together now.
To my delight, the past few years have opened up many beautiful moments with my biologic family. I had not been close to them during most of my adult life due to differences in our approaches to life that seemed insurmountable. But somehow we find ourselves able to relate together with increasing clarity born of mutual respect and love. I feel that part of my healing process is to grow into a whole person who is able to synthesize all the different parts of my starseed and Urantian relationships. This is happening in a beautiful way for me and I encourage all you crusty old-soul starseed out there to seek a relationship with God that will lead you also to even older-soul elders who have the wisdom and the love to bring you through your healing so that you too can begin to synthesize into the destiny you were meant follow.